A mother–daughter story of addiction, estrangement, and repair. Fiona and Ellie trace their paths through sobriety, foraging, and intentional psychedelic work—finding each other again through laughter, listening, and new boundaries.
In this raw and intimate account, Fiona reflects on her April 2025 retreat with Numinous Ways—revealing how psychedelics, deep preparation, and communal support helped her confront childhood wounds and break free from a lifetime of smoking.
Neil, a numinaut and participant on Numinous Ways retreats, shares a moving reflection on how nature, psychedelics, and deep attention have helped him dissolve the boundaries between self and world.
Drawing on the work of Nan Shepherd and Roger Duncan, Neil explores practices of full-bodied perception—walking, listening, and quieting the mind—as doorways into the living…
In January 2025, a small group of us travelled deep into the Peruvian Amazon for a unique kind of journey—one rooted not in tourism, but in respect, learning, and connection. What began with a dream led to ceremony, plant medicine, and meaningful encounters with the Shipibo people. This blog documents that experience—its challenges, beauty, and…
At a Numinous Ways retreat, Ben is guided by Sam, a facilitator, through the complex tension between control and surrender inherent in psychedelic experiences. While daily life requires control for stability, psychedelic journeys demand letting go to access deep transformative potential. This paradox challenges Ben, as maintaining control can cause anxiety and resistance, yet surrendering…
In the serene ambiance of Pension Homeland near Amsterdam, Sam, one of our lead facilitators, shares his prelude to a transformative experience. On the threshold of the Numinous Ways retreat, he meditates on the tranquil waters’ edge, contemplating the journey ahead. Sam’s narrative intertwines the anticipation of guiding participants through their psychedelic explorations with reflections…